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Saturday, December 5, 2009

the perks of being a wallflower - select quotes

the perks of being a wallflower
by stephen chbosky

"One Winter" mix tape, B side:
Asleep the the Smiths
Vapour Trail by Ride
Scarborough Fair by Simon & Garfunkel
A Whiter Shade of Pale by Procol Harum
Time of No Reply by Nick Drake
Dear Prudence by The Beatles
Gypsy by Suzanne Vega
Nights in White Satin by Moody Blues
Daydream by the Smashing Pumpkins
Dusk by Genesis
MLK by U2
Blackbird by The Beatles
Landslide by Fleetwood Mac
Asleep by the Smiths (again!)

I'm not exactly sure why, but I always thought it would be fun to have "glory days." Then, I would have stories to tell my children and golf buddies. I guess I could tell people about Punk Rocky and walking home from school and things like that. Maybe these are my glory days, and I'm not even realizing it because they don't involve a ball. p.52

I thought about how many people have loved those songs. And how many people got through a lot of bad times because of those songs. And how many people enjoyed good times with those songs. And how much those songs really mean. I think it would be great to have written one of those songs. I bet if I wrote one of them, I would be very proud. I hope the people who wrote those songs are happy. I hope that they feel it's enough. p.62

I think everyone should have watercolors, magnetic poetry, and a harmonica. p.64

Do you know what I mean? That nice feeling when you look in the mirror, and your hair's right for the first time in your life? I don't think we should base so much on weight, muscles and a good hair day, but when it happens, it's nice. It really is. p. 67

I don't know how much longer I can keep going without a friend. I used to be able to do it very easily, but that was before I knew what having a friend was like. It's much easier not to know things sometimes. And to have french fries with your mom be enough. p. 144

And I hope everyone's pictures come out great and never become old photographs and that nobody gets in a car accident.
That's what I really hope. p.173

I love my mom so much. I don't care if that's corny to say. I think on my next birthday, I'm going to buy her a present. I think that should be the tradition. The kid gets gifts from everybody, and he buys one present for his mom because she was there, too. I think that would be nice. p.189

After I said that, we all got quiet and sad. In the silence, I remembered this one time that I never told anybody about. The time we were just walking. Just the three of us. And I was in the middle. I don't remember where we were walking to or where we were walking from. I don't even remember the season. I just remember walking between them and feeling for the first time that I belonged somewhere. p.198

I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won't tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn't change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have. Good and bad. p.211

It's like if I blamed my aunt Helen, I would have to blame her dad for hitting her and the friend of the family that fooled around with her when she was little. And the person that fooled around with him. And God for not stopping all this and things that are much worse. And I did do that for a while, but then I just couldn't anymore. Because it wasn't going anywhere. Because it wasn't the point. p.211

So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them. p.211

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

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Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Criminal Minds "100" Synopsis (SPOILERS)

This is for Holly, who missed the episode.

The episode starts out with slow motion sequence of a house, and someone being motioned through it by the different members of the team. There's blood everywhere but we don't see any bodies. Something is seriously going down because Morgan looks super worried when we see him.

Hotch says the quote: "He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you." -Fredrich Nietzsche

I didn't start doing this until 20 after. The ep starts with JJ being interviewed by the mean lday in charge. It's obvious something serious has gone down. JJ is defiant about what they're talking about, though we really aren't sure what has happened. JJ starts telling the story at the beginning. Somewhere in the first 20 minutes, we switch to Garcia being interviewed who is equally defiant. But here's the gist of the first 20 minutes of actual plot:

They are trying to find Foyette, who must have shot Hotch or something in an episode we haven't seen. He's definitely got it in for him. He's dubbed himself "The Reaper." He also stabbed himself multiple times in an old episode to make him look like a victim. Obviously, now there's no need for us to see that ep. But I digress.

They're trying to track him through the meds he should be taking for the injuries he sustained during that attack on himself. They narrow it down enough so that Garcia has a smallish list of people, then Reid anagrams for a little bit and comes up with the pseudonym Peter Rhea which anagrams to The Reaper. They find his apartment. They stake it out for a while before going in. Foyette isn't there, but it's obvious he left in a huge hurry. Though not before beginning a hard drive wipe on his computer. Garcia, of course, does her magic and they find photos of the US Marshall who's protecting Haley.

Reid is being interviewed, about who decided to head to the Marshall's house without calling SWAT (which is what they do) and when she implies that it was Hotch's idea and not the team's, Reid says "The problem is, I have an idetic memory, and that's not what happened." Which I find funny since I thought it was only things he reads but whatever. Later in the episode he's going to repeat back something verbatim that he heard, causing even more inconsistencies with earlier episodes, though it's consistent with this episode. Oh well. Back to the story.

After they find the surveillance photos, Hotch calls Haley's Marshall and he doesn't answer, the team knows there won't be time to get SWAT to his place, and so Hotch and the team head that way.

Hotch gets to the US Marshall's home and finds him on the floor. Flashback sequences show him being tortured for information.

On to Reid being interviewed - says he's absolutely sure that the US Marshall didn't compromise Hotch's family, because he took a whole lot of torture. Of course, he has something scientific sounding behind his answer.

Back to present day - Hotch rides in the ambulance with the US Marshall. Flashback to Foyette during the torture. He uses the Marshall's phone, calling all the speed dials until he gets Haley. He tells Haley, who we see with a short brown bob walking down the street with Little Hotch, that her Marshall has been killed, along with Hotch, and that he's with the Marshall service. He tells her to throw away her cell phone, buy a new disposable one and get back in contact with him and only him to meet and find a new, safe location. Yikes!

Back to present day, Hotch is in the ambulance with the Marshall, as he tells Hotch that Haley is meeting the killer. Then his heart monitor flatlines, and we go to commercial with a stunned look from Hotch.

Flash forward to Prentiss being interviewed. She's being asked why Hotch separated himself from the team, which he did by being in the ambulance. She, like all the others, is defiant towards the mean boss lady.

Flash to after the ambulance. All of the team is on a conference call to Hotch. I guess Garcia found a phone number? Hotch hung up on them and called Foyette. Confused about how he got the number? So Hotch is talking to Foyette and doing all of his profiling magic on him. Talking about his mother (of course.) Oh, the team is listening in on the phone call.

The unsub is watching Haley, then he gets a call from her. Tells her to open the gate. Hotch hears all of this.

After Reid spouts the whole conversation back to the team, which is fun of course, but the other thing that doesn't mesh with the way the show portrays his eidetic memory. Anyways, they figure out that he's taking Haley & Jack to their old house. Morgan calls Hotch to tell him, but of course he already knows.

OMG, I can't even handle this. Haley just called Hotch on speaker phone and now Hotch, Haley and the killer are all talking. The team is listening in. Hotch is telling Haley to be strong, she figured out that this guy is the killer. They talk for a while, Hotch tells Jack (the little boy) that he needs him to help him work a case, and he hugs Haley and leaves the room. And OMG she's saying goodbye basically as Foyette stands up and stands behind her, doing creepy unsub faces and smelling her hair. She says to Hotch, "Tell Jack how we met. I don't want him to think you were so serious all the time." (Footnote: They met when Hotch auditioned for Pirates of Penzance because he thought Haley was cute and knew she was in the theatre club or something to that effect. If I had an idetic memory I could tell you more specifically.)

Haley says, "I want him to believe in love because it is the most important thing that you need to show him. Promise me." Hotch promises.

And then we hear two gunshots.

Back to Morgan being interviewed: "And I don't know what happened after that.

Hotch frantically runs toward the house, gun drawn. Finds a flashlight. Wanders around gun drawn. Sees some blood on the floor. Follows a blood trail up the stairs. And we see Haley's dead body laid out by the bed. Hotch is about to lose it but keeps his cool.

Sees shoes peeking out from under the curtain. Rounds the corner and takes 5-6 shots at the curtain. A person falls. Hotch pulls back the curtain and we see Foyette, but he's wearing a bulletproof vest. Hand to hand combat ensues through the house. Hotch gets the upper hand finally and beats the shit out of him. With his bare hands. Which I guess is a little inappropriate. Then the team gets there, and Morgan pulls Hotch off the guy.

Flashback sequence of Hotch with little Hotch. Apparently "working the case" meant hiding in some trunk. So the little boy is safe. Hotch gets him from that trunk and JJ takes him outside. Then we see Morgan checking Haley's pulse, and Hotch cries over her body. We realize Morgan, in that scene, is what we saw at the beginning, from a different angle.

Then back to present day. Hotch is being interviewed. The mean lady actually looks a little bit sympathetic.

Mean lady: What do you think would have happened if Foyette had gotten up off of that floor. IF you hadn't killed him.
Hotch: I don't have to think. I know. He would have killed my son.
Mean lady: That's good enough for me.
And she turns off the tape recorder. Tells Hotch that if he or his son need anything... Hotch thanks her. We follow Hotch to the briefing room, where the team is sitting around with Jack.

Hotch: Poet Haniel Long said, "So much of what is best in us is bound up in our love of family, that it remains the measure of our stability because it measures our sense of loyalty."

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Livejournal

I've been posting a particularly personal blog on Livejournal. It is yellow and moody and viewable only to friends. If you think you might like to read it, you can do whatever you're supposed to do on Livejournal to try make that happen.

Livejournal is still weird to me. That being said, I'm starting to enjoy userpics.

Monday, November 23, 2009

JT - Google knows you!

I was searching out the blogs of the speakers from Skepticon for 365 Thoughtcrimes, and this happened when I decided to search for JT's blog rather than just go to my bookmarks.

No matter how I typo my name, it doesn't pop up correctly. lol.